desire

How can one sit around desiring something so strong so much and do nothing about it?

I guess its easy when the desired goal requires exercise. Many people struggle with exercising to lose weight. It's not easy to keep that goal. Mostly because unless you're doing some sort of dancing or other creative form of exercise (at least for me personally) then it is dull and boring.

Most of weight loss truly is based on what you eat. I don't recall the percentage but I think its like 70% diet and 30% exercise. not sure don't hold me to that. There are so many days that I just want to stop eating in general and survive on drinking Gatorade and idk... maybe coffee. but I can't. my body screams for nutrition. rightfully so! I can't starve myself. it's just not healthy at all. Me, when I skip a meal I get a headache. The headache becomes a migraine and that is the end. I'm stuck in bed.

So I'm at a loss what to do. I'm going to keep following the 21 day fix program. Starting back on it Monday. It really helped my before. But this time I have to follow the exercise regimen.

I desire weight loss. I desire feeling good about the way I look. I desire to eat healthy from now on.

I desire a healthy lifestyle

exercise

So I'm just gonna say it- I am lazy. I chose watching tv over exercise. I need exercise. Technically everyone needs exercise. It doesn't have to be for the purpose of loosing weight. Exercise is good for your body, mind and spirit. I have been told by my doctors and therapist that my mood will improve if I exercise daily.

Man if only I could get off the couch. I recently told my husband that we could use our house as a gym. Squats with the couch, sit-ups using the floor. Running up and down the stair well and much much more.

I have had 3 gyms in the past. Lucille Roberts- I went a handful to times and couldn't cancel the contract so I paid for gym I didn't use. Then there was Bally's- again I went their twice and paid a 3 year contract!!!! To break a Bally's contract is like impossible. you have to either die or move an insane amount of miles from a bally's gym. Then there was Planet Fitness. Hubby and I started going. Super cheap by the way! and we never made a routine of it. Stopped going and eventually cancelled.
So my treadmill at home broke. There is a gaping hole in the belt. So maybe Planet fitness could happen again. But if we move I don't want to be under contract with a gym.

I recently lost a lot of weight. when I quit drinking alcohol pounds shed quickly. I now fit into my size 2 jeans. But all my weight is in my belly. Sometimes a touch it and think: Erin you feel pregnant .. lol!!!!

I've tried dieting by juicing and cutting down on carbs. Boy is it hard. I prefer to eat what I want to eat and that's that.

Loosing weight also is easier if your partner does it with you! And my husband wants to lose weight so that's good.

I've always dreamed of being a runner. I can barely walk fast and lose my breath. Let alone run or jog!


Maybe I'll get off my duff and start. There's no time like the present.

Today's drink:
Cupcake Frappuchino