Monday, June 15, 2015

Sisters

There's nothing like the relationship with a sister. I was reminded of this yesterday. My family and I got together for a lobster bake! Well, I never cracked a lobster on my own and had no idea what to do. My sister was nice to work on my whole lobster before she even touched hers. This may seem like no big deal but to me I thought .. how considerate! She is a mom and moms eat last but as a sister that was just so nice of her. She is always doing things to help me out.

My sister and I had a pretty bad relationship while we were children. Predominately my fault. I didn't want a sister and when I was four.. I got one. They were twins, her and my brother. My brother was perfectly acceptable as he wasn't 'replacing' me. I really thought my mom wanted another girl because I wasn't good enough. true story. So,.. I didn't make a relationship with her. Everything she did or liked (for example: Backstreet boys) I made fun of her for it. I teased her about her weight and basically ignored her. I am NOT proud of this AT ALL. in fact I now realize how much I missed out on.

Jealousy jealousy jealousy! Oh my God. I compared myself to her in every way possible.  I still do at times. I'm not going to list what I was jealous of because I feel that is very personal. I feel like her best friends are her sisters and they are closer with her than I ever was.



It wasn't until a few years ago that I started to have an actually relationship with her and dare I call it a friendship!!!! She has always been there for me. But it hasn't been since the last 5-6 years for me to recognize that.

I planned her bachelorette. I was so upset that the games about how you know the couple's history were answers I had no clue from. I really missed out so much of her life. Usually sisters know everything about each other. Well at least in my opinion. I went away to college and that REALLY distanced us.

Overall I now have a great relationship with her. She sets an example for me in regards to relaxing and not worrying so much. I wish I had that trait naturally. She seemingly doesn't worry much at all. She is someone I can go to for advice that I welcome. When I was sick she was the first person I called in time of panic.. she was so good with bringing me to a relaxed state. I love you sis with all my heart. I would do anything for you in a heartbeat. I look forward to growing even closer with you. Which I feel is possible with any relationship.






What I love about my sister:
her carefree spirit
helps me see that everything is OK no matter what
fabulous mother
loyal and devoted wife
super talented at her career
always willing to try new things
goes with the flow
beautiful



Today's drink: Soy chia tea

4 comments:

Unknown said...

��������this brings mixed emotions. Probably the same ones that you had. Happy, sad, love! You basically told me this after you got sick the first time. When we were young I never understood why you were always so mean to me. When you told me why it all made sense. I'm glad things changed i always felt like the oddball in the family left out of the cool group. Part of why I say family's of 3 child don't work. We are sisters by blood but now we have a loving friendship!!!! I love you erin very much!

Unknown said...

Those question marks we emojs boo that they didn't load

Ms. Moody said...

I love that were so close now. Time to move forward and forget the past. I apologize for my mean behavior

Unknown said...

More will be revealed, Erin. Love you, Linda